The Weight of the Whole World

Perhaps it’s because I take comfort in that this letter will never be sent,
And that a lot of people on the internet we’ll read my vent,
But I’m human, I make mistakes,
I’m sorry whatever it is I said that made you do an about face.
See, I don’t want to negate my apology by saying “But”,
But I’d really like to know what specifically pissed you off,
If we’re going to have a father son relationship as adults,
I will speak the truth with civility all the while you may scoff.
No, I won’t be treated with disrespect, I’ve learned to like myself,
Part of growing up and getting old is owning up to our faults,
If I hear something that’s hurtful or disrespectful I will speak up,
But it’s upsetting when you bring our relationship to a halt.
We must talk about these things honestly and sincerely right away,
Delaying them only causes more concern and apprehension,
I love you and care enough to give you the time and space you need,
But don’t dwell on things because it will never help ease the tension.
In the meantime I’ll wait with the weight of the whole world on my mind,
Knowing we’ll talk again soon because I’ve become much more optimistic,
I know my approach may not be the best but rest assure that I’ll try,
Be patient with me because I too am a little autistic.