Scars Of My Choices

I reflect on all the scars you left on my flesh…

Run my mind over the thoughts you implanted in my head.

I look back on the silence of your absence and the peace it brought,

yet I scold myself…

because I let you back in

even then…

Even when I knew there was better,

Even when I knew you didn't mean the promises you uttered in begging me for another chance.

I knew back then you weren't good for me,

that the web you called love…
the place that I got stuck,

Was a place where spirits go to cry…

I didn't understand how your hand on my neck was the lesser of two evils…

That the other evil was stabbing into my logic,

scalping my voice from my mind.

So I did what any idiot would do….

I wrapped my trust in you,

unbeknownst to the dagger in my back…

I didn't notice the pain that relapsed the day I gave you a place beside me again.

I didn't know my name that day,

Walking away….

Embracing the unknown…

And yet I know….

Though your chains no longer hold…

Some scars remain and never grow old.