lost

my bags are packed
and i am ready to go
to a dark place
that nobody knows

i want to hide in a room
and lock the door
i want to bend a spoon
and pass out on the floor

i have to stop the voices i hear
who keep telling me the end is near
the thrive and survive
and live on my fear

i have lived this life for so long
where did it all go so wrong
no matter how hard i try
i feel like i could never say goodbye