Back here

I’m back, in these, 4 walls  
Before I left, there was paint,  
that covered them all,  
it seems every-thing
That’s bright,  
Just fades and dulls,
 I had it all,  
Now it’s faded and dulled
Don’t worry because  
 
I’m here with the alcohol  
I’m here with the drugs  
I’m here with everyone  
That I’ll never love
They’re what I needed  
I don’t want to need them again
You’re all I’ll ever see no end  
Can’t hear your voice begin  
Or I’ll start remembering  
And lose myself letting you in  
 
I’m back, broken down,  
The Walls vanish,  
so empty and okay with all of this  
the help I turned down  
Words never heard,  
They echo off the walls  
Its all I hear now  
It seems everything that’s bright,  
Fades and dulls
Like these 4 walls that surround  
Everywhere I look consumes And reflects
I was bright  
 
here with the alcohol  
I’m here with the drugs  
I’m here with everyone  
That I’ll never love
They’re what I needed  
I don’t want to need them again
You’re all I’ll ever see theres no end  
Can’t hear your voice begin  
Or I’ll start remembering  
And lose myself letting you in  
 
Now I can’t keep staring,  
at all the white  
I’ll go blind stumble and fall
I had it all, I had it all  
Now I’m faded and dull