My Beloved, My Dearest, My only Companion

Here sits my one & only true.
For her there is nothing that I won't do.
I stare at her with eyes filled with a lustful passion.
Every day at work I want her, I need her, she gives me complete satisfaction.
Numb my senses, take away this pain I feel on a daily basis.
She has been a part of my life since 1995.
She's both good and bad for me, it's a wonder that I'm still alive.
Her outsides are plain.
Yet her insides are insane.
I'm doubted for everything I do in life.
She's my comforter.
One of my truest loves.
Oh how I miss the days of excess.
The memories of getting drowsy and passing out, all caused by her.
I love her more than life itself.
I doubt anyone else has the same love for her as I do.
Take this pain away from me.
Life is so fucking painful.
Yearly,monthly, weekly, daily
I pray for her to end this shit.
I pray for her to just stop everything.
So tired of feeling like a fat fucking piece of shit loser.
I get on my knees and scream for her to please stop this hurt and misery, I am saturated with.
My Beloved, My Dearest, My only Companion.