Dysfunction

If it’s meant to be, it’d be easy to grasp, and there wouldn’t be challenges or complications with apprehensive behaviours.  

It’s all or nothing, there can be no in between, whether by internal or external aggravations.
 
There wouldn’t be uncomfortable silences, which breeds underlying insecurities, and the communication would flow organically.  
 
I’ve been on a one way street for some months, and the other party is demonstrating all the signs that stipulate I cannot trust him with my heart, again.  
 
So many red flags indicate that it’s not meant to be when the other party facilitates your overthinking, and the unnecessary head fuckery that unfolds when you lose your internal balance.  
 
A grown man and woman, do not do those things to one another as they’re cognisant of the impacts of such behaviours, knowing that those behaviours breed dysfunction and uncertainty.  
 
Whilst I crave a functional healthy relationship, I don’t believe I’ll find one, unless I go back to church and build my world around a godly man.  
 
All I see are wolves in sheep’s clothing !