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so sick of stressing,
staying stuck in a fucked space,
dreading waking up
to look in the mirror again,
can't stand my face
can't stand existing in this place..
hate when I feel this fucking way
gotta escape from myself
and this reality I reside in..
ruled by routines and
 shitty financial situations
we've placed ourselves into
caught in this fucking cycle...
really trying to stay calm and
 keep control..
 so hard sometimes,
more like all the time
and in my mind
I'm slipping further away day by day
dragging myself down
deeper and deeper
falling
crawling
sprawling out
over a space of nothingness
no life no love no energy
no nothing
just stuck
and scared shitless