My journey

Lifting me
  higher and higher
taking me
    deeper and deeper
and I'm
closer and closer
to reaching something special
a certain state
a certain
 careless confusion
a consciously created place
 within this mental space where I
 too often disgrace myself,
shoving the secrets on the shelf
 never to be seen
nor thought about but
they always be lurking, lingering
 longing to be released
no longer rambling round my brain
 still feeling the strain not to let it make me go insane but what do I know about real pain.. not much only what
 I put upon myself
 occasionally obsessing over
all the wrong things
such a waste of time and energy
but it all starts within my mind,
over time this realization hits
 ridiculously hard which
happens almost always.
Truly a never ending journey, a discovery deep within oneself, no help hopping through these inner dimensions
 must do it alone on my own
in the zone of oneness with all.