Tattered wings

As we return home I lay in bed
She runs her hands down my side
Touching my old scars
"Papi how does a man love so deeply, kill himself so brutally."
Nothing bothered me as much as the tears she cries now
She tells me i need to learn to relax
Ive pushed beyond any mans limits
"The tattered beast you see on judgement day is not a demon but your guardian angel."
"Let him rest papi hes earned it you've given a life of stress let him rest and heal."
"You love like an angel. Always at battle like a devil."
Im home dear liz those days are gone
Bare with me im trying to change
"I know mi amor, i just wish you would have before."
"I was singing on high when you retired, now im still living the fights"
I owe her apologies i may never be able to repay
I hope she knows i will do all i can to make it up