secrets and alibis

 
Queen of nothingness
I wrap it around me my covering
steal rainbows from the sky
color me beautiful just for today
tomorrow all will fade to dust
 
I will live in this moment
because it may be my last
coveting kisses--  
from the lips of innocence
 
betrayer of heart
thief of yesterdays
I can't give them back to you
 
never saw it coming...this day
it snuck up with a hollowness
I died little deaths  
while the whiskey drank me dry
 
what I had to give was stolen from me
manipulation of a weak mind
false hope kisses your heart goodbye

there is no route of escape
if I leave...heartache
if I stay...it's the same
 
so I stay with lies in my eyes
a smile cemented in place
I catch you looking past my facade
midnight blues lock with mine
where my sadness fails
yours hits the mark
 
we don't talk about goodbye
we know it's coming
it's just a matter of time
I worry how you will make it...alone
I can't see me without you babe
 
keeper of secrets...your alibi
never forget I knew it all
I chose to love you still