Self Respect?

No fucking self respect.
That's me,
That's what I've become,
But it's nobody else's fault but mine,
On top of my game,
I beam and shine
But..
That doesn't last long...
I'm soon put back in my place
"Your a waste of time"
"A waste of space.."

No fucking self respect..

But it's not you,
It's because of me,
I try to show you,
To make you see..
That I'm actually an ok guy...

But I'm starting to believe,
Your making me think.
Are you being sincere,
Or it's maybe the drink,
I just don't know anymore...
Maybe your right..

Maybe I'm worthless
I'm lazy
And old
A control freak
A user
A mental abuser..

Maybe I deserve all the physical abuse,
Your hands round my neck...
A punch in the face,
Which I think in itself
Is a fucking disgrace..
But
maybe I'm wrong..

Standing there helpless
Worthless..

Maybe your right?