There Is No Spooning

 
We lay together as one
Softly spooning convergence
Safe and comforting hugs
My arms clasped around
Giving the occasional squeeze
Hugging so, so close
Lust does not play a part
Sex simply not possible
Nor even desired
Innocence reborn
In a soft warm hug
I whisper honeyed zeros
Whisper I love you
There is no reply
It hurts quite a lot
I so need to hear that
Again but all I get is
Wringing in my ears
And now wringing my hands
I find myself not being
Able to utter another word
I think lonely thought
Despite my embrace
Despite merging spooning
Tears start to run down my face
Making the pillowcase wet
Hugging a pillow
Wet with tears
Cannot replace the way
We lovingly laid together
Smiles and sighs are silent
There's no real movement
Unrequited hugs fail
Being lonely in bed
Is the worst kind
But at least I can't
Be burned and hurt again
Though she still haunts me
I cry myself to sleep
On a regular basis
Such a crippling loneliness
But this is my chosen lot
Stoped chasing rainbows
No more kite flying
Some broken hearts
Just never mend
On a positive note
At least I am not
Fucking my pillow