Pessimistic thoughts

A shadow casts itself around me  
So vague and undefinable  
The light in my eye dims into the night
Left to feel ugly and undesirable  
Constantly reminding myself of my own vitality  
Has left me helpless and desperately cynical  
My head is throbbing and my eyes are burning  
My ears are bleeding while I hear them laughing  
My thoughts are thinking  
Of thinking thoughts  
I can't ignore them any longer  
They tell me to drown my sorrow  
The whispers of my mind are deafning  
They repeat themselves with the same message  
searing into my soul, flesh and skin  
Reminding me well of what we could of been  
Tempting me once again to do it all over again.  
seaping and sinking deeper  
and farther  
I can't ignore them any longer  
Seaping and sinking  
Denying any reasoning  
Condoning And dismissing  
logical thought  
Sit and listen,  
don't think outside the box  
Fuck you dont question  
I am right and I am law  
fuck your good intention  
I saw your flaw  
I can't ignore this any longer  
My thoughts are thinking  
of thinking thoughts  
Their whispers are deafening  
They repeat themselves with the same message  
I can't ignore them any longer  
Left to wallow in destructive pleasure  
Thinking and thinking
Thinking of thoughts
Thinking of thinking thoughts,
Contemplating of thoughts to think
While I float here thinking,
begging, bleeding and thinking,
screaming, and yelling.
And I think I had enough to think of thoughts.
I think to think the thoughts I think have had enough