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OH GROW UP
That resourceful, grief stricken six year old boy
Impetuous lad still demanding control
With my impulses plays, his favorite toy
Betimes undermines my mature adult role
Perpetually craving a dopamine fix
He lures me to unhealthy diversions
He whispers “come on...one last time, just for kicks.”
While my will to resist he imprisons
Prescription pills I am told
Will stifle diminutive tyrants
But I fear growing too old
Losing my humor, my vibrance
For my little man is always curious
finding joy in the simplest of things
I dread being dull ever serious
With new focus I pray he still sings
Impetuous lad still demanding control
With my impulses plays, his favorite toy
Betimes undermines my mature adult role
Perpetually craving a dopamine fix
He lures me to unhealthy diversions
He whispers “come on...one last time, just for kicks.”
While my will to resist he imprisons
Prescription pills I am told
Will stifle diminutive tyrants
But I fear growing too old
Losing my humor, my vibrance
For my little man is always curious
finding joy in the simplest of things
I dread being dull ever serious
With new focus I pray he still sings
Published 3rd Apr 2019
Author's Note
Poem #2 for Napo/GlopoWrimo; Just now diagnosed with AD/HD...in my 50's for heavens sake. I wish I'd known and been treated much earlier...or do I?
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3rd Apr 2019 7:28am
3rd Apr 2019 11:51am
Wonderful poem! I also spend a ridiculous amount of time reining in my impetuous inner child. I often wonder if other people have to spend so much energy on self-management. I've frequently told myself to grow up!
Having a name for the issue can be helpful, I would imagine, as there are many resources out there - not necessarily medication. Good luck finding what works for you, and especially gaining the understanding of those around you.
Having a name for the issue can be helpful, I would imagine, as there are many resources out there - not necessarily medication. Good luck finding what works for you, and especially gaining the understanding of those around you.
4th Apr 2019 2:33am
Thank you, Titanium, or your most incite-filled comment. I spend an inordinate amount of time mismanaging, indulging my inner child, I appreciate your well wishes.
3rd Apr 2019 10:12pm
He certainly still sings here. Love this write Gahdess! Growing up, and old, is hard to do, so much being lost.
4th Apr 2019 2:36am
Thank you, Thomas. Amen to "growing up and old." Frankly I am constantly singing wherever I go...music is my lifeline.
7th Apr 2019 6:09am
Know about late diagnosis was given mine at 44 all those yrs of thinking I was strange, then bang they decide to tell me it’s official, I’ve struggled since more so cause I couldn’t understand why I was under the radrv. When I was diagnosed it was supposed to 2 two hour sessions to determine or not i after 15 mins that’s all if took . Ooops on a rant sorry focused on your not there , liked the poem very much
7th Apr 2019 7:44am
Thank you so much for sharing, AP. I am glad you can now get the right help that you need. I feel freeer now that I know with what I have to deal.
