A Sickness

I worry a lot about things i shouldn't
the thoughts of others, a constant concern
i go about life just like they do
yet these worries i cannot unlearn

i don't even know the worst outcome
like so what if they notice i'm tired
in a packed out room i can only assume
with each other they have conspired

my brain causes me lots of problems
sometimes i cant even answer a phone
its really hard to explain it to others
when the reasons to you are unknown

I've tried many times to fix it,
so i can fit into normal society
fruitless are my attempts and i'm left to resent
my crippling, persistent anxiety.