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Tonight I Face You
over analyzing my life has resulted in failure to live it
emotions are meant to be felt not thought about
I must first feel them to stop fearing them
overthinking has crept me dangerously close to catatonia
total failure to feel equates to paralyzation
tonight I wade deep into my pain
as I deny my lungs they burn as does my soul
I cannot hold out any longer
going, going, gone
my mouth contorts into a hideous scream
as I breakdown my body betrays me
vigorously I inhale all that has been festering
denial the catalyst that has transformed pain into bitter bile
but pain once felt dissipates if the mind will release it
purposefully bidding my mind to be still in my search for peace
desperately seeking oblivion timely discovering solitude
after freeing my pain I can allow myself a peaceful rest
only then can I awaken to embrace the beauty within myself
emotions are meant to be felt not thought about
I must first feel them to stop fearing them
overthinking has crept me dangerously close to catatonia
total failure to feel equates to paralyzation
tonight I wade deep into my pain
as I deny my lungs they burn as does my soul
I cannot hold out any longer
going, going, gone
my mouth contorts into a hideous scream
as I breakdown my body betrays me
vigorously I inhale all that has been festering
denial the catalyst that has transformed pain into bitter bile
but pain once felt dissipates if the mind will release it
purposefully bidding my mind to be still in my search for peace
desperately seeking oblivion timely discovering solitude
after freeing my pain I can allow myself a peaceful rest
only then can I awaken to embrace the beauty within myself
Published 25th Mar 2019
| Edited 26th Mar 2019
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25th Mar 2019 8:15pm
25th Mar 2019 8:16pm
25th Mar 2019 8:29pm
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I am glad You're meditating and evaluating life.
Your spill reminds me of a quote i like a lot:
ATTITUDE
"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.
Attitude, to me, is more important than facts.
It is more important than the past, than education, than money,
than circumstances, than failures, than successes,
than what other people think, say or do.
It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill.
It will make or break a company... a church... a home. T
he remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we embrace for that day.
We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way.
We cannot change the inevitable.
The only thing we can do is play the one string we have, and that is our attitude...
I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it.
And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes”
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Charles Swindoll
I'm still here for You here or email if You need me to be.
I am glad You're meditating and evaluating life.
Your spill reminds me of a quote i like a lot:
ATTITUDE
"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.
Attitude, to me, is more important than facts.
It is more important than the past, than education, than money,
than circumstances, than failures, than successes,
than what other people think, say or do.
It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill.
It will make or break a company... a church... a home. T
he remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we embrace for that day.
We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way.
We cannot change the inevitable.
The only thing we can do is play the one string we have, and that is our attitude...
I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it.
And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes”
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Charles Swindoll
I'm still here for You here or email if You need me to be.
25th Mar 2019 9:27pm
That overthinking can be killer, I tend to suffer myself. I like your process. Nice ink
25th Mar 2019 9:47pm
Thank you Tim! I'm trying hard to feel my feelings and stop just thinking thinking thinking. Thanks for your comments. It's nice to know I'm not the only one struggles with it.
Minx
Minx
25th Mar 2019 10:44pm
i really liked what you wrote and can feel it through my own life right now. I think the reason I have joined DUP is because of those reasons of wanting to somehow find a place to express those insane strong feelings without attaching 'thought' or reason or 'specifics' but allow those feelings to be validated somehow, no matter how powerful and painful they can be. Those feelings have a life of their own.
25th Mar 2019 10:58pm
I hate I missed your welcome. So Hi! You have found the right place. I'm hear most of the time. Get comfortable and look around. DUP is a family. I've only been here a couple of weeks. But it already feels like home. Great people that are ready to help or just give a kind word. I have mo idea what I'm doing. But it feels so good to get it into ink!! I write a lot of erotic smut, lol. But I'm branching out. Glad to meet you.
Minx
Minx
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26th Mar 2019 3:58am
Finally letting that final breath out, inhaling and letting go...letting go Ego
Anonymous
26th Mar 2019 7:31am
Minx,
There are some really great, (and familiar)musings and contemplations there. I thought that was great, and you seem really nice, hope you realize that, and are OK.
Matthew.
There are some really great, (and familiar)musings and contemplations there. I thought that was great, and you seem really nice, hope you realize that, and are OK.
Matthew.
26th Mar 2019 7:37am
Thank you Matthew. I am ok and thanks for asking. This is just what's been thundering around in my brain. Glad to get it out. And dont judge me...I'm a philosophical pervert!! It worked for Shakespeare! Tallen has mentioned you. Nice to finally get to speak to you!
Minx
Minx
Anonymous
26th Mar 2019 2:23pm
Thanks Minx. He's mentioned you, too, and he's right, you're really nice. Great writing.
Thanks,
Matthew.
Thanks,
Matthew.
5th Apr 2019 8:01pm
