Sometimes

Sometimes
loneliness feels like
the only consistency
in my life
not that I am not
an independent person
often preferring to be alone
with my thoughts
sometimes
those thoughts circle
around and around
and I wish that I had
someone to share
that time with
to lay in bed late
sharing soft kisses
sometimes
wondering why I feel
this way when
my life is full
in so many ways
with family and friends
people who care
when my life is awry
sometimes
contemplating the possibility
that something is
wrong with me
nobody wants to be
the recipient of my regard
intensity is too much
for mortals to bear
sometimes
crying out loud
primal screams
from depths of my soul
expressions of immeasurable sadness
so much to share
and none desiring
my hoarded treasures
sometimes
people like fruit
shrivel on the vine
without love and care
become bitter
with the loss
of long held dreams
fading with each day
sometimes
loving awaited
never comes or
the timing is wrong
all that is left
are regrets
over what will
never be possible
sometimes
waking up in
the middle of the night
after a sensual dream
it would be nice
to have someone lying
next to me
to reap the benefits
sometimes
I think that
it would be nice
to have a warm body
snuggle against me
when I am cold
or horny
maybe just hold me tight
sometimes
hope springs eternal
maybe someday
a lover will come
who can be a partner
sharing our lives
and good sex plus
amazing affection
sometimes