In these moments

In these moments, when the past is overwhelming
In these moments, when there’s nothing but the scream
Of your soul, reapeating it: “I’m sorry”
when regret is drowning, no hope of a dream

In these moments it comes back with force and passion
In these moments when it mocks your good intent
In the outcome lie the demons of your sin
In the outcome echoes fear of failing once again

In these moments there’s no feeling in your heart to save you
No messiah, you can not command the storm to just be still
Just a human, but when the heart fails there can remain the will
When it is not feeling then it must be knowing that will guide you through

When the demons mock what I’ve become
Say that all I do will never matter
Grain of sand in storm, or drop in ocean, will you choose the latter?
I say: “None of the above”
I choose to be
One of the rays
Rays of the sun

For without the rays there is no light
And without the rays there is no warmth
And without each one there is no life
This is what I live for, every day
I can fall and stray
But I can never be defeated
As long as this is my chosen path
As long as this is my way

Crush me, mock me, make me drown in shadows
Of the past, but I still know
That my hands can make a star
That I can join the light that’s shining near and far

For where do you find compassion?
And where do you still find love?
Everywhere, open your eyes
There is light for you to see
Light in you, and light in me
And I strive to grasp the ray
That shines from every man and woman
Even if the darkness drowns us
Our worst overshadows trust
There is the gift that we can
Make a star, for open eyes to see
Light in you, and light in me

Light I join, mine’s not the eye that can see nought but shadows
Mine’s the eye that seeks the light
Mine’s the heart that lives to fight
So that when I lay me down
I sleep in peace, for mine’s a crown
Forged by the good things that I’ve done
Warming like the brightest sun

In these moments, when the night will come
The demons know that they can drag you down
But they can not take your crown
For your light is born within
For you are the only king
That in your besieged soul can reign
Will to forge new light again
Brings you through the storm

In these moments