was there any genuineness to begin with?

"oh god... i wish you'd just speak to me; black is all that i see"

it's been so long since we last spoke
years since we last laughed

to this day i don't know what i feel for you
all i know is that it was only you who put a smile on my face
on even the darkest of days

there wasn't a life without you in it
at least, not a life worth living

there was a gravitational pull between you and i
from the moment i first met your eyes

i don't remember what my life was before we met, is it because your beauty has continued to blind me?
or simply because after meeting you, there wasn't a life in the past even worth reminiscing?

one day, you stopped talking to me
you left me alone when i needed you most
when all i wanted was for you told hold me close

and since then, the only thing ive heard from you is silence; the most deafening sound of them all

years have gone by, and i still think of you everyday
my main concern is: did you ever feel the same?

did you feel for me as i did for you?

and now..do you feel despair, loneliness and sorrow every time someone speaks my name?

do you remember the smile your laughter would put on my face?

the long nights when we shared our deepest secrets; the dreadful sun always rising to remind us that we weren't alone