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I Lied
You asked me, in your inebriated candour,
To explain how I thought of you, of us.
Without even a beat or pause, I lied.
I told you my appreciation of the higher, nobler things
- your honesty, your reliability, your always engaging perspective -
But for sanity’s sake, I held back the whole truth.
How to tell you that it is only in the memory of you, of us,
That I reach my climax,
Alone in the early hours?
That it is only the ghosts of your smile, your fingers,
Your tongue, your cock,
Which lead me over the precipice of my release?
This is not the life in which we are each others
So, as a kindness to us both, I lied.
To explain how I thought of you, of us.
Without even a beat or pause, I lied.
I told you my appreciation of the higher, nobler things
- your honesty, your reliability, your always engaging perspective -
But for sanity’s sake, I held back the whole truth.
How to tell you that it is only in the memory of you, of us,
That I reach my climax,
Alone in the early hours?
That it is only the ghosts of your smile, your fingers,
Your tongue, your cock,
Which lead me over the precipice of my release?
This is not the life in which we are each others
So, as a kindness to us both, I lied.
Published 31st Jan 2019
Author's Note
Every time I think I’ve resolved this, here comes another twist. *sigh*
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31st Jan 2019 12:41pm
Very emotionally engaging content. This is very well executed with exceptional vocabulary and content. it truly tugs at the heartstrings, and makes me wonder if all are as self-sacrificing. If that's what one should consider it.
31st Jan 2019 4:05pm
Thank you for your perspective, Ahavati.
I cannot claim to be self-sacrificing when it is circumstances that have forced my hand into these actions.
There’s a lyric by U2 that it incredibly relevant to the relationship in this piece:
‘I could never take the chance
Of losing love to find romance’
What I share with this man is deeper than friendship, more enduring than fleeting physical passion and rarer than anything imaginable.
How, or even why, could I ever jeopardise that, when we almost lost each other before?
I cannot claim to be self-sacrificing when it is circumstances that have forced my hand into these actions.
There’s a lyric by U2 that it incredibly relevant to the relationship in this piece:
‘I could never take the chance
Of losing love to find romance’
What I share with this man is deeper than friendship, more enduring than fleeting physical passion and rarer than anything imaginable.
How, or even why, could I ever jeopardise that, when we almost lost each other before?
