Today I Am

Today I am
Closer to tears than smiles
Eventually someone will notice
It just might take awhile

Today I am
Closer to screaming than laughing
Eventually this will wear off
I just can't live in denial

Today I am
Closer to sad than happy
I thought this was over with
It can't be happening

Today I am
Closer to weakness than strength
I've held it for too long
It's not something I can beat

Today I am
Closer to my past than present
It's been locked up too long
It's to the point I can't hold it

Today I am
Closer to daydreams than reality
My own safe haven
It's where I've found the best of me