Saddest

This is the saddest thing
Not because I don't care
I care too much
And my apologies are cheap
And frequent
It was my fault
Even the faults that were yours
I'll miss you forever
Because I can't even begin
To wish you were mine again
I threw you away
With a shrug
With a shout
With a bout of silence
Where an I love you
Should have lived
But instead withered away
And shriveled into itself
Forgotten