Submissions by beanbandit (David Gonzales)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
In a half dead state, maybe comatose, I sorta chose this type of life over an overdose, and notice ghosts of a past that almost no one knows, except for maybe through a poets prose...
Pieces
Can you breathe in front of me?
Pieces..?
Im just a
Chemical
Pieces..?
Im just a
Chemical
#SelfDiscovery
#SelfReflection
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Glad
And if that day done came my kids don't fuck with me?..
I'm glad
Cause who the fuck am I ?
gone call myself trying to be a dad?
Done fought against abortions,
ain't ask if they wanted be here,
and never did I consider that without them meant the mirror
My kids without the me, that's unseen, but that's the real
And if they really was my end, then what the fuck I'm doing here?
I'm glad
Cause who the fuck am I ?
gone call myself trying to be a dad?
Done fought against abortions,
ain't ask if they wanted be here,
and never did I consider that without them meant the mirror
My kids without the me, that's unseen, but that's the real
And if they really was my end, then what the fuck I'm doing here?
#childhood
#loneliness
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Lines
Their lines are always so smooth
And mine shakey
Creased like too many years of smiles on the sides of lips and the edges of eyes
I sometimes turn up my nose to them, uninterested, sometimes even disgusted by their lack of vividness
Envious of of the softness and sharpness that others keep
But still I make them
Drawing them out between the hurried heartbeats of the too many milligrams of caffeine in my chipped coffee cup
So sad and happy at the same time
Because...
Their lines are always so smooth and mine...
Shakey
And mine shakey
Creased like too many years of smiles on the sides of lips and the edges of eyes
I sometimes turn up my nose to them, uninterested, sometimes even disgusted by their lack of vividness
Envious of of the softness and sharpness that others keep
But still I make them
Drawing them out between the hurried heartbeats of the too many milligrams of caffeine in my chipped coffee cup
So sad and happy at the same time
Because...
Their lines are always so smooth and mine...
Shakey
#art
#vulnerability
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Do that thing
They said
“come and do that thing you do,
not so young man”
And I stare blankly into my own mind for a moment
And try to figure out what that thing is while my fingers remember that they have done something in the way that they ache in a cool mid spring morning, wrapped around a red bull, the big can.
While my breath tries to remember in a wet-ish wheeze the things it may or may not have said. Always on the verge of a cough.
While my thoughts try to remember what they were thinking of before the ominous countdown toward forgetting what they were doing on a cool...
“come and do that thing you do,
not so young man”
And I stare blankly into my own mind for a moment
And try to figure out what that thing is while my fingers remember that they have done something in the way that they ache in a cool mid spring morning, wrapped around a red bull, the big can.
While my breath tries to remember in a wet-ish wheeze the things it may or may not have said. Always on the verge of a cough.
While my thoughts try to remember what they were thinking of before the ominous countdown toward forgetting what they were doing on a cool...
#LifeAsAWriter
#aging
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My cup runneth over
I don't even want
A full cup
My rides been bumpy
And my hand already shakes
Stop pouring muthafukka
I said when...
A full cup
My rides been bumpy
And my hand already shakes
Stop pouring muthafukka
I said when...
#humankind
#gratitude
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Plan B
I had a girl,
Addicted to plan B
She ain't even like me
But she kept rolling around
In my bed
Everyday
Just to get her fix...
Addicted to plan B
She ain't even like me
But she kept rolling around
In my bed
Everyday
Just to get her fix...
#love
#sex
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Loved
Who knew I don't know
Was such a sweet song
Cause I don't have to die
for me to be gone
And who knew all I've done
Would be all I did
Cause I don't have to burn
While my candle is lit
Who would guess all I wrote
Was everything I said
Cause I don't have to break
From the ache in my head
Who could see all this dirt
On my face when I rub
Cause all the things I hurt
Were all the things that I’ve loved
Was such a sweet song
Cause I don't have to die
for me to be gone
And who knew all I've done
Would be all I did
Cause I don't have to burn
While my candle is lit
Who would guess all I wrote
Was everything I said
Cause I don't have to break
From the ache in my head
Who could see all this dirt
On my face when I rub
Cause all the things I hurt
Were all the things that I’ve loved
#love
#SelfReflection
#hurt
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Die for me
It might seem a little morbid
But I smile
When I think how many things
Had to die for me…
With a
Nose for the bloodied rose
Only the savage knows
Love told me be myself
Left me to feel no home
Where does the squalid wind blow
Fool staring out dirty window
Lies taste divine when sick
I die and find no end though
Post mortem brain to stay
Lost in my selfish way
Told me head to the light
Frightened when I just stray
my words become bread crumbs
Find me when I am done
Come eat along the way
I'll...
But I smile
When I think how many things
Had to die for me…
With a
Nose for the bloodied rose
Only the savage knows
Love told me be myself
Left me to feel no home
Where does the squalid wind blow
Fool staring out dirty window
Lies taste divine when sick
I die and find no end though
Post mortem brain to stay
Lost in my selfish way
Told me head to the light
Frightened when I just stray
my words become bread crumbs
Find me when I am done
Come eat along the way
I'll...
#identity
#death
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Would you?
Would you remember my voice?
When I leave all this noise
Just a partner in the dance
Of chance and choice
Could you hear the words I say?
When the night takes my day
And the setting of my sun
Comes to steal the moon away
Would you understand the things I said?
Stingy with stories that remain unread
Ink in an unused pen too dry
Divine, full of dreams in a comfy bed
Do you know that I'll remember you?
Across the spans of the sands of the galaxies through
Within every single breath exhaled
Haled in every...
When I leave all this noise
Just a partner in the dance
Of chance and choice
Could you hear the words I say?
When the night takes my day
And the setting of my sun
Comes to steal the moon away
Would you understand the things I said?
Stingy with stories that remain unread
Ink in an unused pen too dry
Divine, full of dreams in a comfy bed
Do you know that I'll remember you?
Across the spans of the sands of the galaxies through
Within every single breath exhaled
Haled in every...
#love
#death
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Father Figures
I wanna be like David. That man teaches all the kids. Shows them all the things they’ve always done help them do the things they never did.
I wanna be like Leroy. That man funny, down to earth. I think I am the way I am, because he showed me his ways first.
I wanna be like Jose. That man knew the path of Gods. He showed us to be that in ourselves, that it was there inside us all.
I wanna be like Lupe. That man knew just how things work. He taught us how to see the bigger plan, and which things should be done first.
I wanna be like Larry. That man can build you up a dream....
I wanna be like Leroy. That man funny, down to earth. I think I am the way I am, because he showed me his ways first.
I wanna be like Jose. That man knew the path of Gods. He showed us to be that in ourselves, that it was there inside us all.
I wanna be like Lupe. That man knew just how things work. He taught us how to see the bigger plan, and which things should be done first.
I wanna be like Larry. That man can build you up a dream....
#father
#LifeGoals
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Yes and no
What would happen if my yes and no
Just come together
Like I'm naked still when dressed in clothes
Singing at the altar no matter if my chest so sore
learning real no matter how the lesson goes
And know I am with or without matter
Airy solid from my breath to bone
Star dusted heart no longer set in stone
What if my love was just a precious clove
Of garlic just so pungent for the lesser nose
But still so aromatic to some that find me similar to a vexing rose
Smooth as every petal but getting in you like you pressed the thorn
What...
Just come together
Like I'm naked still when dressed in clothes
Singing at the altar no matter if my chest so sore
learning real no matter how the lesson goes
And know I am with or without matter
Airy solid from my breath to bone
Star dusted heart no longer set in stone
What if my love was just a precious clove
Of garlic just so pungent for the lesser nose
But still so aromatic to some that find me similar to a vexing rose
Smooth as every petal but getting in you like you pressed the thorn
What...
#love
#choices
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Unfate
Brain a little different
Sensitive and pimpin it
Ever since I limped in
And shouted, "Bring the gimp in
A little simple and
plain Jane's addiction
The claim that stains my diction
Remains that dude be fighting
All the moods that spite him
foolishly delighted
in the fact he's frightened
Unusually enlightened
The sort of sordid ordinance
That always moves to write them
But the blues be bright when
The fool is up inside them
The lightning from my lighter
Strikes the joint, then I be high again ...
Sensitive and pimpin it
Ever since I limped in
And shouted, "Bring the gimp in
A little simple and
plain Jane's addiction
The claim that stains my diction
Remains that dude be fighting
All the moods that spite him
foolishly delighted
in the fact he's frightened
Unusually enlightened
The sort of sordid ordinance
That always moves to write them
But the blues be bright when
The fool is up inside them
The lightning from my lighter
Strikes the joint, then I be high again ...
#fate
#LifeChangingMoment
#choices
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