Temptation~lost in the fog

 
I wasn't feeling the day
and the day wasn't feeling me

everything is covered in a grey fog
it covered my mind this fog
in a quiet voice it spoke
today would be a good day to get high

I thought about it
turned it over in my mind
I realized I'm an addict
I will always be an addict
and it hurts this feeling

I don't feel good today
this feeling is oppressive and heavy
just like the fog outside

it enters me this fog
with its thoughts
it comes in and makes its self at home
it's comfortable on my low self-esteem

I feel my soul
it's turning over in me
fighting to get out of my body
it wants to leave this place of discontent
this place of temptation

I want to cry
damn it but I can't
why won't the tears come?

today it's just me and the fog
speaking in low tones
until I want to scream
until it screams