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a Daily Dose & Drowning
( Schizophrenic’s Struggle )
Sometimes it’s mindfulness, at times,
at other – at times, I am not…
this distant and quiet, me.
Sometimes I don’t know,
not certain of anything!
Skulking about, pondering,
wondering schizophrenia & suicide.
However,
I am not depressed
or sad
or lonely, upset or mad.
I’m just logically drowning
‘bout mental illness verses
and my Spirituality.
( I could use a hug, a gentle whisper, perhaps ----
but she’s too far away and on video-chat, I only
get…a…flicker. )
Just because I am quiet
Just because I have little to say
doesn’t mean I love You…less.
It oft means
I am struggling
with myself,...
I guess.
Sometimes it’s mindfulness, at times,
at other – at times, I am not…
this distant and quiet, me.
Sometimes I don’t know,
not certain of anything!
Skulking about, pondering,
wondering schizophrenia & suicide.
However,
I am not depressed
or sad
or lonely, upset or mad.
I’m just logically drowning
‘bout mental illness verses
and my Spirituality.
( I could use a hug, a gentle whisper, perhaps ----
but she’s too far away and on video-chat, I only
get…a…flicker. )
Just because I am quiet
Just because I have little to say
doesn’t mean I love You…less.
It oft means
I am struggling
with myself,...
I guess.
Published 3rd Dec 2018
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Damn it Tallen... would share a piece of my mind but
cannot. .
this doesn't make you any less than the next man who
may even gloat in their own false words and security to
build recognition upon another's genuine sentiments
vice versa alike women...
and it's not always a mental issue but very much may just
be who you are..... one with deep feeling tentacles into a little
of everything..
but I get it, it gets difficult when submerged and all you can
do is show the manifesto..the magnified you.. rather than tell
with Hhopes youre accepted
fuck!
cannot. .
this doesn't make you any less than the next man who
may even gloat in their own false words and security to
build recognition upon another's genuine sentiments
vice versa alike women...
and it's not always a mental issue but very much may just
be who you are..... one with deep feeling tentacles into a little
of everything..
but I get it, it gets difficult when submerged and all you can
do is show the manifesto..the magnified you.. rather than tell
with Hhopes youre accepted
fuck!
3rd Dec 2018 4:33pm
I deeply appreciate Your
in depth share with me........
it helps, it really does.
can You not share a piece of your mind via PM?
I try to be as authentic and vulnerable
in all things. I don't always succeed
but I keep trying
in depth share with me........
it helps, it really does.
can You not share a piece of your mind via PM?
I try to be as authentic and vulnerable
in all things. I don't always succeed
but I keep trying
3rd Dec 2018 6:17am
In life it'll be as it'll be
I'm sure the one true love out there understands a little of your ways by now
True move don't leave because of this or that
True love stays for an eternity if it could
Why would it leave?
If it did then it's not that rare thing called true love afterall
I'm sure the one true love out there understands a little of your ways by now
True move don't leave because of this or that
True love stays for an eternity if it could
Why would it leave?
If it did then it's not that rare thing called true love afterall
3rd Dec 2018 4:36pm
Of course
we agree on this
but the one has been quiet for so long
and while I know she knows..........me
maybe she is not the one.
I think the distance is kicking our hearts to the curb.
Remember when I told You she craves the physical and i crave the intimate................
honored for the RL add, Rose
we agree on this
but the one has been quiet for so long
and while I know she knows..........me
maybe she is not the one.
I think the distance is kicking our hearts to the curb.
Remember when I told You she craves the physical and i crave the intimate................
honored for the RL add, Rose
3rd Dec 2018 9:01am
Once again a very powerful and emotionally radiating piece Tallen! The aspect of schizophrenia and it's strong influence for the sufferer to commit suicide or at least have suicidal ideation is a terrifying thing that I can relate to. Therefor I as a poet who also writes here much about schizophrenia appreciates what you write, especially this piece. Great work Tallen!
3rd Dec 2018 4:39pm
I am very grateful for our meeting one another here
in the Deep.
I am also grateful for Your understanding of (our)
the daily struggle.
However,
the thoughts no longer terrify me. I am thinking
maybe the zen meditations and studies are helping.
appreciate your read and kindness
in the Deep.
I am also grateful for Your understanding of (our)
the daily struggle.
However,
the thoughts no longer terrify me. I am thinking
maybe the zen meditations and studies are helping.
appreciate your read and kindness
3rd Dec 2018 6:00pm
Keep writing Tallen, it is not only yourself who gets a cathartic benefit. Many of us who read your work are lifted and find them of help. Great ink my friend
3rd Dec 2018 7:38pm
Thank You.
I do keep writing; I have other stuff on this subject
(or maybe it's me talking to myself again) but I wasn't planning on sharing it because there's more than a lot of expletives and this site doesn't appear to be one that approves too much of that. No worries, though, there are many darker sites online that do.
I am comforted that my share might help others.
Appreciate the read, share and RL add
I do keep writing; I have other stuff on this subject
(or maybe it's me talking to myself again) but I wasn't planning on sharing it because there's more than a lot of expletives and this site doesn't appear to be one that approves too much of that. No worries, though, there are many darker sites online that do.
I am comforted that my share might help others.
Appreciate the read, share and RL add
26th Mar 2019 4:15pm
This is such a vulnerable spill. You laid yourself out there in a way that others could see you the way you see yourself.
Love Minx
Love Minx
26th Mar 2019 4:20pm
I have
and the struggle is real and daily
appreciate the read, share and Honored for the RL add
and the struggle is real and daily
appreciate the read, share and Honored for the RL add
