Missing

someone
who means so much
to me
just walked
away
left me drowning
in agony
was it all false
illusion
conjured by a heart
mine alone
must hide away
sorrow
no one must see
or know
especially not you
love
hides its face
a mask
forever in place
laughing
pretending to be free
yet bound
with sadness and loss
bereft
of my animus
in limbo
aching and alone
seeking
whatever connection
I can
in trivial events
lacking
a crucial part
of myself
leaving me in the chill
winter
of my discontent
without light
or warmth of you
freezing
the worst of it
is wondering
was it even real
uncaring
fate’s humor eludes
my grasp
taunting me cruelly
hope
is almost lost
please heed
our souls calling out
missing