pain's child

 
sadness has taken me into her arms
she won't let me go
her tears caress my face
mine have yet to fall

years have gone by without my notice
alone in my forgetfulness
I paid no mind
as one by one, friends silently said goodbye

I'm sad and I don't know how to reconcile it
there is no happy pill
no cover from the emotional rain

I feel so ill equipt to deal with the pain
as it swirls in me
waking me at dawn with nightmares

I need to embrace this
so why is my first instinct to run?

these feelings foreign and new
I knew only anger
and repression of the truth

they speak to me now
from somewhere deep within
willing I hear their petitions

as all my soul's colors
bleed into one
I have to bravely face the hurt
find a place for it in my heart