Blue

am i strong enough? weakness consumes me, will i crumble under its pressure?
too easily hurt, fragile and cracked, i have no answers and that scares me
lost in this jungle of life, i search for meaning and maybe one day, i shall be loved again
but the paranoia creeps in, slithering cruely and wraps itself around,
like a black cloak of dispair sheilding the true nature of my heart from kind eyes
watching the world pass me by, i am still and i cry.
a flicker of light in the distance, a beacon of hope catches my attention
dare i dream of a guardian angel to rescue me from the dark?
I think I can hear the sweet song of salvation, do my ears decieve me?
running away too fast and too soon, is it just my immagination?
this melody has a beat, it is faint but grows stronger each day
irregular fragments lift my heart but the worry of hurt dampens its sound
there is an irrepressable feeling i just can not ignore but fear of rejection clouds my senses
i'm like a star that swirls in a galaxy, so bright yet lost in the millions
why would i be so special when others around me shine brighter?
do you have any answers? can you shine your light on me for a while?
could you help ease my worries, and bring me back to life from this shadow of time gone by?
am i such a fool to believe that happiness could be mine, that you would share your happiness with me?
reality is lost on me, my self criticism holds me bound. just now i am what i am
and not what i could be...not what we could be.... am i wrong?
again i ask you for answers and i am reaching out to take your hand
will solitude greet me and once again shall i stand alone
watching the world pass me by, i am still and i cry.