I love you

    
you don't see me in the words anymore  
somewhere I got lost in them  
until they shout with a feeling louder than I do  
and I am no longer the soul behind them  
  
blending in, just a part of the scenery
in the day to day monotony    
I'm fading, colder to your touch  
   
I love you  
never was so empty  
as when they tumbled from my lips  
and you saw in my eyes sorrow  
you knew then I was hiding the truth
inside me I wept for the lie of it  
   
it broke me a little  
when you reached for me  
and I was no longer there  
when I was just as hollow as those words  
   
damn it when did things become so hard?  
   
honesty was a word I once stood by  
now it's a slap in the face on a cold day  
   
I love you