Just let me brake

I can feel my insides jumble
turmoil that i cannot escape
freeeeeeeaaaaaaaaak
but on he ouside,
it's the calm before the storm.
it looks like i'm at peace
but i want to cry. i want to die.
they terrorize my dreams
my brain
everything is spinning.
i can't make sense of this
or anything
i try too keep the calm,
but how long before it all brakes lose?
i don't know how kuch more until i fall
until i brake, crack and crumble
give me a break?
i don't know how mush more i can take...
the veil of death
has a nice ring to it, don't it?
like a blanket
sweeping across the promise land
take me away
i just want to break
finally fall to the ground
lay on the floor and drown
why can't i break?