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It's never the matter
Of believing
I your only
It's the words,
"trust" you begged
After i embraced lonely
Letting you have your way totally
That stings worse than
Any fist that kissed my face

Drinking cyanide kool-aid
Bringing a cynic to hope again
Yet with a breeze
Her carefree
As Autumn leaves
I became yesterday

Did her flavor make your lips
Sweeter to taste?
Guess you needed
The escape
From pleas
I couldn't take the weight
Of building two worlds

While you play the field
Planting illusion
Lies you shield
Calculation of your future
Was minus me
The hardest part
Accepting betrayals
Cackling

As I shook
Her hand
All while joking
Easier for them to laugh
Knowing

They're the only ones
Who ever knew
What he's like
The real you