fuck you for making me feel something

  
you have eyes for another poetess  
I don't know when I started to care  
but I realize it's true I do now  

really it didn't phase me before  
watching you cavort with this one and that  
I was busy with my own poetic dalliances  
lusting after poet after poet  
wasting my time writing endless poems for them  
 
when exactly did you enter
my soul's forbidden doorway?  
 
I don't let people get to me  
could be your rejection  
that gave me pause  
shunning a secret part of me  
one I don't let anyone see  
 
you saw me bare  
without my dark army to protect me  
it hurts you didn't like what you saw  
it pains me to write this truth  
why do I care what you think?  
others still love me  
 
but it bothers me  
I thought you would understand  
the broken part of me  
who needs to be reeled in  
the one that requires a Dominant touch  
because without that I will run over you, run wild  
to my own detriment  
 
it doesn't matter that you're not my man  
or that you have others  
I just need to know I have a special place in your mind  
a place that can't be filled by another