golden tears

smell of piss
and shit
depends leaking
pride sinking
as i wait . . .
dirty-stinking
decaying teeth
hard eats never again
naked
soft meat between my legs
forever sleeps
mind half gone
roaches feeding on my brain
meals-on-wheels
my children
ashamed to visit me
a prologue of their fate
sitting alone
in front of a broken t.v.
defecating on a life wasted
nurse!
nurse!
two hours later . . .
nurse!
pissed my-self again
golden years . . .

full of tears.