Connection is Dead

It's been a while since I wrote to you
My mind is always circling with heavy thoughts    
Normally sexual thoughts run rapid in my erotic brain  
Since my husband continuiously leave me sexually untainted    
Those palms never getting tired of women online  
Dry! So dry!! That writing to you was the only thing to help quench my  thirst    
Last time I wrote to you I finally reached a lustful high!    
High! So high! That I ask my man to exit my life    
Tired of feeling left behind!    
My mind,soul, and body needed to feel inside
Finally I broke! And truthfully spoke!    
The thought of me feening for someone else killed his soul  
Quickly he begged to lay my body down to claim his forgot prize  
So sexually deprived he unravel her by the second night    
Sending shockwaves in spot I was sure he forgot  
He kissed my luscious peach and licked my clit until she came heavy  
365 days she waited to be devoured and finally she came with overflowing showers  
Twice that week to my surprise he wanted me! He wanted me! Finally! 😒  
Now! Today!  
Tonight! Here I am writing again  
Trying to clear my mind    
Things are back to the same only now the problem is evident    
My lust was high because I needed love from one guy  
To be wed!    
Til death do us part!    
But how do you fight a dying connection  
Even after spread legs ,,,,,, we lay in bed unknowing one other    
How can you rekindle a flame when the underlying connection is dead?