Maybe next time.

In the month of April i attempted suicide with sleeping pills . I remember being so exhausted after not sleeping for days and not showering , not eating and not living after weeks , months after living in a mental purgatory i decided to call it quits.
I took one then four then ten then thirty.i was functioning just fine for 15 minutes until my brain got fuzzy and i started twitching my mouth got dry and i began to slur so bad i couldn't speak. I get to the hospital and i get taken in i get put on IV's and i just remember twitching and just with the feeling of not being there i could hear but i couldn't understand what people were saying then it went silent and it got cold it was comforting type of cold i felt like i was floating , drifting away into somewhere safe then i closed my eyes i felt large pressures on my chest about twice then i heard it all again the noise the beeping the movement then i went to sleep and now were back at it again living in pure agony this purgatory i cant escape