He was the knife in my heart.

What exactly is love? We catch these feelings that make us act like fools or even a child. At least I had an experience that made me look like a fool and left me dumbfounded. I fell madly in love with someone who I thought could do no wrong, but in the end he ended up leaving just like my subconscious knew he would. It was just a matter of time. He seemed so right at the time, he could do no wrong... he was almost perfect.

He knew all the right things to say and when he said them his words would swirl around my brain kissing it. Leaving me astonished that someone could care for me so much. I never felt that happy in my entire life. I usually don't fall fast for somebody like I fell for him. He came in picked me up then stomped me into the ground like someone putting out a fire. He ripped my heart from my chest and basically played soccer with it. He left me speechless.

How could I be so foolish. I knew this would happen. My soul is hurting and my heart is shattered like someone throwing a rock at a mirror. I fell back into my depression, its like you were a drug, every time I was with you I felt high. You numbed my pain and made my heart stitch itself back together and for what? So you could leave the broken pieces and walk away with a grin on your face? Your the reason for my tears, your the reason I have trust issues, your the reason I never want to fall in love with someone again.

How could you act fine as if you didn't just destroy another human being? You walk around like your the fucking king of the world. It must be nice to have no sense of emotion or even acknowledge how you made someone feel like a useless pile of trash. But even though you fucked me up emotionally I still want the best for you in life. Its hard to watch you leave, its hard to let you go, ill never forget the times we had. But its time for me to go.