wishing on stars

there was a time when i believed in
horrible stepmothers and
wicked witches; i forgot about
fairy godmothers forgot the rainbows
forgot the shooting stars forgot the magic carpets
forgot magic itself

.forgot prince charmings

i believed everything i did would be
chaotic from the moment my
heart had
dismantled

and every minute was
midnight when
carriages turned into
stupidfuckingpumpkins and
dreams were destroyed

i spent too long stuffing myself with
poison apples and pressing my finger on
spinning wheels

finding reasons better than his to why
i was insignificant

there was a time when i forgot my name and
spent hours in front of mirrors
wondering what went wrong;
there was a time i thought all was lost



.then you found me