24th of august 2011 5:37 am

sometimes when you love someone
you want believe they're right.
but deep down i know the truth,
what makes me cry at night.

i told her i loved her,
but i dont think she really cared.
she later tells me i mean the most to her,
which only makes me scared.

then on the 24th of august
i wake at 5:37 gazing into her deep brown eyes
i hold her close to me for a short while
letting go of all her sinister lies

with my arms wrapped round her
i look at her and smile
could this really be happening? shes all mine!
just a moment in time, a short precious while

i gently grasp her tiny waist
and stroke her smooth caramel skin
this body in my hands is beyond perfect
so petite and thin.

i stare at her beautiful face for some time,
unable to sleep.
i cant believe how stunning she is
from her face to her feet.

her beauty kept me awake that morning
i didnt want to shut my eyes.
i just laid awake looking at her for hours
my hand running up her thighs.

she didn't say much.
she was obviously thinking of sophie
her amazing, "beautiful" lover,
i felt like a cunt.
and turned away pulling at the cover.

after that, nothing else happened
she didn't hold my hand like before
nor rest against me
she was embarrassed and it was so clear for me to see.

to you this may sound stupid amelia,
but i cant remember the rest.
maybe my mind didn't want to record it
was it all just one of your sick twisted tests?

i know for a fact you ignored my goodbye that afternoon though
you say you love me, let it fucking show!
that's my point amelia rose ford
you don't love me, do you?

you know im weak,
i cried all over again that night
i cant deal with all this,
it hurts me more than youll ever know when we fight

5:37 cut deep in my arm
our sweet time carved in my skin.
what have you done! my barrier which once stood strong
so brittle and thin.

you're still my beautiful liar amelia
and you still have my everything, my all
i hope youre gonna be there for me baby
i just want you to catch me when i fall