I Turn to Ashes

i brace against the bashes
the gashes
the regular pour from my lashes
the crashes
the dashes
to cover up the slashes
my soul and myself in  constant clashes
whether to take in his soulful gushes
that wrap my heart in sweet painful crushes
remind me of a time full of lushes
hugs and romance under the bushes
occupy my head in recurrent flashes
that i'd rather dump in different trashes
and wipe clean the rest in my mind's caches
so long my battles, my daily thrashes
i will wear these gifts on me like silk sashes
soon i can say your name without breaking into rashes
and avoid making the news in weekly splashes
your exisence gone into this fire's ashes
free atlast, i've turned to ashes.....