lifeline, mine

how am I going to let you leave  
when I have become so attached to you
although you're leaving will all be on me
I have become so attached to you
at times I feel I cling to your love for dear life
your presence lingers on me when I leave
it sticks to my clothes, keeps me warm like a jacket
your soul has rubbed off on me, I have become so much like you in ways I never thought possible
you have removed things that in my mind were set in stone
you have made me into someone new
you gave me life when I was quitting
you had me see in different views
you made me into the human I am today
so again how am I going to let you go when you've become apart of me?
how do i let go of half of myself without taking a butcher's knife and hacking it away
how does one cut themselves in half because they can no longer look at that side of themselves
everything I fucking do reminds me of you.
just music alone makes me think of how you happy you get when this or that song comes on and it makes me cry because I want to dance with you. I want to take you hand and never let go, although your leave will fall on me i cannot for the life of me see how this will end well for me. I do not see me smiling without you in the picture we have so many damn pictures. I don't know how to smile without you next to me I don't know how to hold hands with anyone else and have it feel so right, I don't know how to let people climb inside of me and change me the way you have. how am I going to let you go when you're ready to leave me.