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pain in my heart.

i'm sorry that I broke your heart, you'll be glad to know i broke mine too
The strings on my heart also tore
this mass piece of muscle controlling my body collapsed
I gasped for breathe
wouldn't give me air or circulate my blood, help me
my heart broke when yours did.
my heart still breaks every time I look at you,
not because you make me sad
you remind me why I wake up
well actually mewtwo does that, sometimes it sounds like she's singing your name in the morning
I swear she talks about you
she always perks up when I kiss her head and say your name
I know she misses you
dad, that's what you are to her.
she knows when I'm screaming and crying so hard I can't catch my breathe its about you
and she loves me even harder, not because its her job
she misses you too.
my bed isn't the same without you in it
she feels it too
my room has this emptiness about it when your presence doesn't fill it
I don't know how to handle it.
its hard for her too.
so when I look at you my heart breaks
its not because I'm sad
not because I'm sad
you don't make me sad
you make my heart hurt, not always a bad thing though
you make my heart hurt because I miss you
And from time to time I realize that you're still mine
from time to time I realize I don't have to miss you, you're in arms reach
you're a phone call away
But its not the same
And that's why my heart hurts.
its not a bad thing when I get to look up into your sleeping face and kiss you.
But its still not the same.
my heart still hurts.