Millions Upon Millions

I've been alone too long
somebody without someone is nobody at all
I have fought myself scared that someone your type couldn't see past my flaws
Sometimes still at this moment in our journey I feel like the awkward nerd in the back of the class
Afraid to say
ask
look
even smile
your way
I start to get weak in the knees
hands become moist
Heart starts to skip a beat
 Breathing slows
Mouth gets slightly dry
millions upon millions of thoughts race rapidly throughout my mind
 Trynna make sense of this feeling I am feeling
 I feel high off of you
relaxed
safe
also scared
 I'm losing the worst parts of me and I'm finding the best parts of me
Damn I fell in love
 I still chuckle to myself from time to time because I never knew there was something so beautiful beyond sadness
Don't get me wrong I have witnessed it but the thought of me having this
always escaped me
 Nights without knowing or having you before would seem like  they could go on for ever
Days were lost to me
I got a feel of this beautiful thing called love
 It is so real that it creates life on it own
 I want to create life with you
 I want to bare a piece of my soul mixed with a piece of your soul
 I feel us combining wen you release
the urge to be near you
with you is becoming stronger and stronger
you are the one for me and I am the one for you
the fire we make it's getting hotter the energy we create is getting bigger it creates its own bubble
we can't let it burst
 we touch each other and get shocked
Ouch!
The pain of the pleasure ignites something so beautiful inside me
I can't explain it but I know you feel it too
 
                                           D➿💜