Two year puzzle

I wish you were in my bed, I wish it was our bed.  
I feel the need to put my fingers between yours, to push our palms together and feel the skin of your hand with my thumb, to never let go. Glue our fingers together like you do when you're done putting a puzzle together, I want to put us together like a puzzle. To take my time building us, finding the pieces that fit perfectly, it'll take a long time there are so many pieces, so many pieces that don't have the right piece to go with yet, I want to be patient with us and take hours just looking at you, figuring everything out. I wish you were in my bed, I want to run my fingers through your hair and kiss your cheeks as you silently snore I want to listen to your slow breathing, I want to reel in every moment we have spent in this room and I want to hold them like I hold you at night, I want to fuss in bed until I get it just right and then you hold me from behind and nessle your head into the nape of my neck and breathe. I want to breathe you in the way we do with candles, and ciggarette smoke, and the way we sometimes breathe in our food, instantly wishing we would have taken a little longer to eat, I want to breathe you in the way I breathe in your scent everytime I hug you, the way I breathe in a smell that reminds me of you and wish to visit that exact moment all over again, the way I breathe in cold crisp air in the morning and shiver but it feels too good to go back inside, I want to remember these moments the way we remember our favourite colors, snacks and movies, how we never forget them and they come to mind so easily, I want to remember this moment of missing you while you sleep on your bed, under your sheets and I can hear you breathe but it isn't the same because I can't put my ear to your chest and listen to your heart, your lungs and your stomach the way they all work in unison to keep you living, I want to remember the way you drink your coffee, i still don't have it down to a t but one day I wont have to think when I make us coffee in the morning it'll just be natural. Like the way your fingers bend around my hand and they intertwine with mine. I have never loved another soul the way I love yours and i don't ever want too, I want to spend my life, feeling this love as it grows and matures and blossoms. I want to watch us grow together, I want to be able to point out the moments where I knew id always be yours like we point out the stars and which ones make up what constellations, I want to be able to look back and know the exact moment I fell in love with you but there really isn't an exact moment because once i started falling there was no stopping, there are so many moments I knew I was falling in love with you.