Replacement Memories

you don't care
you don't have standards
it doesn't matter
whose hands they are
or what they do to you
you won't complain
you don't know how to say no
you want them to hurt you
you need them to
you're practically begging for it
and it's so pathetic
because you think
that if they hit you hard enough
if they bruise you enough
cut you up
fuck you
hurt you
then maybe their hands
will replace his
you can't forget
so you try to replace it
with something else
something harder
something that hurts
something that stings
sharp and clear
something that you asked for
maybe they could help
if you ask nicely
pretty please will you hurt me
pretty please will you break me
you'd let them do whatever they want
because maybe their hands
will make you forget his