Suicidal Road

David    
     
I do not know you very well, only from reading some of your poems.    
And I will be totally honest here. Some have resonated with me while others have not. Some speak to me in volumes and some not at all.    
But, isn't that the way it normally is when one writes on so many different planes as you do? The vast variety of topics you cover is not going to be everyone's cup of tea and it shouldn't be expected to nor should they expect you to be all the time.    
But, the one thing I do know is, if for any reason you were not here to grace these pages it would be a lonelier site to visit and a lot blander when I did.    
     
It takes more than having all your limbs to be a man. It takes the heart, the caring and the soul I have seen in you just from reading your poems, and I among many here would miss you dearly if that were to happen. So please, please erase these thoughts from your mind, for you do have a purpose here, to smack us upside the head from time to time, to wake us up and make us realize what a wonderful place the world can be if just we try a little harder, care a little more, and do as much as we can to reach out to others.    
     
Believe me when I say I did not write this lightly, for I do not comment on things I have little interest in and I have great interest in you being in a more positive frame of mind.    
     
Teri      
   

 
Thank you for your response and the caring it contained    

David

David my friend, your pain can be felt very deeply in these words. I will echo each heartfelt word said by amorous...what I will add to it is this...within one stanza struck me hard -

“I want us all to link arms
And fight the power”
- know this...my arms are linked with yours whenever they are needed and that is reassuring because there are many others aside from myself that need yours linked with ours...for a long time to come.

I am sending you an endless amount of warm fuzzies to blanket these thoughts in an attempt to bring you a smile. Much love to you...

xoxo Taryn

these feeling leading to the poem are genuinely felt - so far I have not been able to learn the knack of just shaking them off - sometimes when I try along comes a flashback to kick me in the nuts - this is how life is - it's not for want of trying :-( but I  know you get that :-) I have always viewed linking arms as comfort, support and strength. something we all need :-) thank you for caring and for your constant support :-) Huge hugs :-)

I can relate David. I've been tired for years. I hope you will continue to fight the machine. Sometimes the fight is the only thing I have to look forward to. No love, no sex, half blind, excruciating pain, no money, few friends and even less that care. But I'm still trudging through the mud. Don't give up!
JJ

you and I both know the score and both of us struggle to ficght on on a daily business - that is why I have such a lot of respect for you - that and your a shit hot poet of course :-) I'll make you a deal - I'll keep fighting if you do :-) thank you my dear friend :-)

They will have to amputate my head or my heart before I quit the shit! JJ

that is so good to know - thank you :-)

David, I have followed many poets on here and read some of their work.  You are the only one that I never miss a poem.  I hate that the weight of your world weighs so heavily on your shoulders right now.  If I could but carry it for a day I would.  You grace this sight with the truths of a life few can understand and much fewer could handle.  I wish I had answers that would magically solve your problems, but know that I stand with you.  I send HUGE American Bear Hugs to you my friend, because even though we only know each other through this sight, I truly do consider you a friend.

Thank you for the write.

And my thoughts are with you, I ran out of prayers long ago.

Thank you you are indeed a friend in my eyes too - Unfortunately these kind of poems need written and are genuinely felt - I have stated in the past that I would not attempt suicide because I don't have that kind of courage - so please don't worry about that :-) thank you so much for your words of caring and support, they mean such a lot and help to chase the dark clouds away :-) A huge Scottish Bear hug on return my American friend :-)

Powerful words Dave, I agree life seems so unfair and all of us face battles and struggle with demons. Its hard but please try to keep positive, you are respected and admired by so many people on this site. I sincerely hope things improve soon.  Best wishes

Thank you sir that was very kind :-) Like many for me it is ebb and flow - I always try to be positive but sometimes it just doesn't work out: Bipolar is a bitch one minute as high as a kite and within an hour you can be down in the deep where the demons are - such is life - things will improve maybe even an hour from now :-) thank you so very much :-)

Those who read this of like mind will find it resonates deeply with them. Those that are open to looking at it will find themselves shifting closer to the edge of the precipice that will tip them into truth. And sadly, there are those who will ever remain blind. But we don't stop shining the light and looking for survivors because some are too closed off to reach for it. You keep speaking truth, I'll keep my arms linked through yours and shining my light the best I can beside you...and beside Taryn...and beside all the others of us who still fight for love. It's exhausting and often thankless, but it does matter. Ripples, my friend. Ever widening. Fierce strong hugs for you

You are such a wise lady - I only write these kind of poems when that's how I am genuinely feeling, dark days, light days, good weeks bad weeks - the very nature of bipolar - those who know the condition know that it is not something that you can shake off. It cam change in an hour - makes me feel like a real burden sometimes:-( anyhoo - it is what it is and I am what I am and sometimes choice is not available :-) Thank you so much for your understanding my friend :-) Huge Hugs :-)

David, mo Chara chotha`imid...

It's, long road of darkness into that mind-set--to be sure! And whatever demons / inner-struggles/ take one on this journey, it is one that torments, and tortures with feelings of utter abandonment, and complete hopelessness. And while i am unable to empathize with your bi-polar, i can tell you that, as survivor of a heinous act of domestic violence, i often face days, and nights, where trigger factors  plunge me into a tunnel of absolute darkness, and despair....where not even the tiniest crack permits the lite of hope to penetrate. It's at that moment when i feel the most defeated, and only want to be free of the madness...to simply give up.....

For myself, as well as all those who face similar life struggles, this one delves deeply.For those individuals that have not  been faced with such situations,perhaps your words will offer insight into the daily struggles that make your life so extremely challenging and difficult ....if they but take the time to read with an open mind and heart!

You are such an amazing individual....so full of kind, and caring thoughtfulness...so creatively talented! But, sometimes, life can, and does, become too overwhelming for you, and for so many us to handle. I can definitely understand that. But, i never want you to forget that i will always stand by you! I will always be sending you the strengthening power of White Lite's energy, and the healing powers of Blue. And across, and into the darkness of your despair, i will continue to send my Heart-Lite to guide you safely thru...

Huge...Caring....Comforting.....HUUUUGGGSS---times infinity--are headed your way!! xo

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this is such a wonderful comment that really touched me - I can't thank you enough my very special friend sending you too many hugs to count :-)

Lots of love here David! <3 I also vascillate betwixt the highs and lows...  
 
Stay strong sir! As a dear friend often imparts to me- “Be grateful and hold your head high, in SPITE of the ‘human scrap heap’!”  
 
Tactfully crafted spiteful humor can go a long way! <3 HUGE hugs brother, persevere!

It is impossible for anyone yo know the burdens I carry, that's true for everyone - I could never fully understand your burdens. I write poems like that because they are true mood reflection. thank you for you kind understanding and wise words - means a lot to me:-) Hugs right back at ya :-)