Ending day

She just had to be  
Just like the others  
She had to use me  
Taking from me what she needed  
My love and passion  
Then coldly pushing me away like I was garbage  
I fucking hate myself for believing her  
I knew it was wrong from the go  
My guts telling me so  
I should've followed my gut
It never fails me  
I should've Trusted my instincts  
I fucking hate how easy it is for her
To act like we were nothing  
To forget all the times she said she loved me ,and never would hurt me  
We go way back are love ran deep  
Over 22 years  
And to hear I love you in the morning
Then the next she's ghost  
Leaving me worrying feeling like I'm  choking on rope
And my mind keeps going down that road  
There would be no more pain if I'm  hanging by a rope  
If I down some pills with whiskey I'll die in an hour or so  
Or Open my veins and bleed out on the floor with a note  
Saying what you did to me and how I felt  
But I can't let this bitch beat me  
She may have broken my heart but I won't let it defeat me  
I won't let a shitty human being get to me  
I'm putting up walls  
For everyone and Everything
Obviously I can't trust anyone or anything
With time this hatchet in my chest will be removed  
I’ll start to heal  
Start to repair the parts she broke in me  
And in my eyes did so easily
Like I was a stranger  
A nobody  
Just some trash off the street
She's not worth my feeling  
Her soul is poisoned
Soon I will lock her away like the rest of my nightmares from the past  
Only a blurred image in my memory which carriers little sting  
Goodbye my Darling  
You used to mean something to me  
Now your just a ghost in my memory