Stepping away

This must be a joke
It can't be real I must be dreaming
Having this love affair the secrets the sinning
It was never supposed to be this way
There were rules she said
No feelings just physical
And I agreed willingly
But she caught feelings
I owned that pussy
Making her squirt for me easily
She begged me for dick almost intoxicated with it
Then she said she loved me
Changing everything
Now there was emotion and feeling
Something we were avoiding
We should of stopped when we first noticed
But were just human were not perfect
The sex was amazing
Her personality amazing
I should have seen it coming
Now what do we do
Two tangled lovers involved in taboo
Now there's hearts out for the breaking
Does she choose me and leave him
Leave me
 go back home and settle again
Or does she just choose nothing
Taking off with both are hearts in the wind
Never to see or hear from her again
I wear thin
The stress is fucking eating at me
I can't sleep can't think
Just waiting for her answer
Maybe this is what she wanted
To have it all and not choose anyone
Her lies are hauntingly beautiful
Seducing your mind hopes
But I think I've made my own decision
I'll remove myself from the equation
It hurts to willfully let go of a loved one
Just grasping each moment not ready to move on
But this was never meant to be
This was supposed to be just a fling
Such a dangerous game to play
Only thinking of pleasure and never the pain
But there it is right in my face
Reminding me this is a lonely day
The day i stepped away..