I Am (Therapy Homework)

I am reckless and un-loyal  
I wonder if anyone sees  
I hear the cries of those so dear  
I see their love for me  
I want to conquer my inner turmoil  
But I am reckless and un-loyal  
I pretend to listen, I force a smile  
But I feel like there's a sea around me  
I touch the souls of a thousand creatures  
But only in my mind, I worry  
I cry for the relationships I've soiled  
I'm still reckless and un-loyal  
I understand the way they hurt  
I say one day I'll be better, I know  
I dream up a life of ease and fulfillment  
I try to overcome my demons, my sorrow  
I hope in the end my efforts aren't self foiled  
But for now, I am still reckless and un-loyal