[ FC ] Farm Cats

  
   
Another one of the cats died today    
   
perhaps eight hours after    
being struck by a car    
   
The older ones wander    
up and down the hilly road    
looking for food at the neighbor's    
   
Not like the kitten a few days ago    
who we had just given a name to    
   
That death was either from worms    
or a respiratory infection    
or both    
   
similar to the other five or six    
or seven kittens prior this year alone    
   
I've lost count    
   
Aside from the one    
half eaten by the raccoon    
   
or the fluffy tortoise shell    
female who froze where she sat    
in the barn loft this Winter    
   
But, it's okay    
   
God has blessed us with so many cats    
none will be missed    
   
We can't afford to feed them all    
anyway    
   
Sometimes I believe He    
wants to break me with    
as much heartache as    
can be heaped on    
   
grind me into the ground    
with the most impossible    
circumstances to overcome    
   
I want them all to be cared for    
given full bellies, warm homes    
and shelter from the coyotes    
having killed so many    
mouse hunting in the night    
like the mother with a litter of    
seven mouths to feed    
abandoned    
   
It doesn't matter what I want    
   
Does it?    
   
God obviously wants me to have    
more animals than I can accomodate    
   
I have plenty of Love to give    
   
If only Love was enough    
   
And every day I wake up    
I feel more unworthy of    
the opportunity to give it