Tonight I Fly

(Lol, just let me have my cheese.)

I am celebrating love tonight.

It fills me, it gives me wings.

I celebrate what I feel so deeply
Inside for you, what still burns in me
For you, what softly melts over my

Skin at the mere thought of you.
It is right, it is good, it is beautiful.

Just. Like. You.

I used to be so angry at God.
Why did You make us need each other
So much... Why did You make me

Need others so much...
Why did You put this thing in me
That makes me need him

So very much...
Why... Why, God?

I was angry how men could
Detach and separate naturally,
Biologically, and I couldn't.

I don't need any separation anymore.
I don't need medicine.

The gift you were... And still are
In my memory and heart...

That is my best medicine.

I am filled with hope tonight.
I am filled with you, what you were
To me, everything so very perfect

And beautiful and hauntingly right...

I am filled, and I need nothing else.

I am so alive. I feel so deeply,
I feel so much. And this time...

It doesn't hurt. It doesn't take away
Or subtract.

It only gives.

I love so very much
The fact I loved you so very much.

And I always will.

And I go now to fly through my evening,

Alone, quiet, by myself,
But with wings.

I am free. I am whole.

And I continue to love
Madly, passionately, consumingly,
With everything in me.

And it's OK.
Because I don't just walk anymore...

I fly.